It's been a good weekend. We worked outside a lot, Owen ate grass, Lucas dug in the dirt and threw earthworms around. Both kids let us sleep until 9 am both mornings - when was the last time THAT happened? Of course I have piles of laundry and house cleaning to do, since working outside equals NOT working inside. You just can't do everything with kids. Even working outside was a stretch since Owen mostly whined the whole time. The kid really really wants someone to be entertaining him all the time. Too bad I don't have time to do that. But mostly it's been good, and our yard is starting to look almost decent.
Something about working outside always inspires me a bit. It somehow encourages me to look at a bigger picture, gives me time to think, or not, depending on the task. Lately I've been feeling a bit uninspired... perhaps numb is the word? The sleep deprivation, the constant demand of the littles, the frustration of never ever having enough time or motivation to complete the things that need to be completed. I felt a jolt of inspiration during church this morning - the necessity of getting my hands dirty, so to speak, to actually DO something with my faith would be somewhat refreshing. It's been too long that my 'spirituality' has remained just that - MY spirituality. Sure, it's a personal journey and goodness knows I know enough about my chosen faith. I've been immersed in it for forever. But I'm tired of just reading about it, of discussing it. I'm kinda bored right now, bored with the 'a-moral' discussion, bored with the post modern discussion, bored with the discussing of things that remain unseen.
Too bad I feel I don't have time to do anything anymore. Because I'm really ready for something a little bit different. And I wonder how those people who seem to do everything have the energy to do it?
Sunday, May 16, 2010
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Praying for you as you continue to process this. Big hugs to you my friend.
Read the book, Crazy Love by Francis Chan. Guaranteed to give you a kick in the arse in the right direction.
i get that and i've been where you are! you are in a tough stage too...highly demanding all. the. time!!! it does change tho. My kids are just a stage older than yours, and I find myself too busy much of the time with others and filling in needs in my area. It feels great to branch out and help, give and encourage others...but take this time to pray for direction in your life. you are changing this world moment by moment with your kids and others you are in contact with...just love on others...and if you seek Him, He will answer you! praying that you have peace as you wait on Him!
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